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Saturday, June 2, 2012 | 11:00 AM | 0 beautiful(s)

oh hi:) its been really looooooooooooong since i update this blog. the last that i blogged was like last december. oh well. was kind of busy. okay, so its already june holiday. time flies very fast. its already the half year of 2012. omg. so yeah, alot of things happened to me. be it good or bad. i still can't work during holidays. sucks or what?!?!?! and my dad gave me a sarcastic reply when i asked him if i can work or not. this is what he replied me, "work, no!!! pat rumah bnyk work yang you boleh buat!!!" seriously dad? i don't get paid doing work at home okay. i really don't understand why you won't let me work. and then if i asked you for money, you said you don't have any money. so why the hell won't you just let me work? i even said i just want to work like kendarat like that. and its not everyday. balik pun bukannye malam sangat. i mean, atleast if i work, i can earn some money and save them. and if i want to go out, i don't have to ask either you or mum for money. i can happily use my own hard earn money to go out or to go shopping. come on dad. i'm 16 years old. not 6 years old. don't be so over protective. yes, i know you love me and meant well for me. but not letting me do something useful during the holiday like working is just damn pathetic i tell you. you know i rarely go out. kalau keluar pun ade curfew. other than that, i just rot at home and do nothing! yes! nothing at all! hais. i have no idea how to survive this one whole month without any money. my life is just complicated and it sucks. and i just got scolded by my mum earlier. i wanted to go out just know and i wanted to top-up my ezlink card. so i called her and ask her to bank transfer me $5 to top-up my ezlink card because i'm going out with my cousin. she asked me to ask my father for the money. i told her i don't want to call him. and she shouted at me saying this, "ade bapak buat ape! tak tahu nak mintak!" and she put down the phone. mum, its just $5? and it's for me to top-up my ezlink card. and i was mad. so i texted her saying no need to transfer me the money. i can use my own money. and she replied me this, "YOUR PASAL LAH!!!! don't let me slap your face one day okay. spoil brat! tak bersyukur dgn ape yang dah dapat! tak dapat, nak mengamuk!!!" okay, i swear i was so shocked and sad. she called me spoil brat when she said not long ago that she was proud of me because i used my own money to buy something. so what happened now? why did she called me spoil brat? i help her with the house chore. i even volunteered to do the house chore without her telling me to do. i never failed to buy for her present during mother's day. infact, i bought for her a present every year on mother's day. so why is she calling me a spoil brat? she should be calling that to my brother. my brother gets what he wants. my mum never once called him a spoil brat. it really hurts me. my brother gets money each time he went out. me? none. i have to save my own school money and use it to go out. even if he bring food from home, all his school money will be finished. if i bring home food from home, i either bring $2 to buy drink or none. because my school money is $4 per day. i just don't know why my mum called me spoil brat. i'm really sad and i'm holding my tears right now as i'm typing right now. and i always feel left out you know. because they usually sits in the room together and watch tv and joke around. me? all alone either in another room or kitchen. or hall. but most of the times, i will be alone in the kitchen. eat alone. hais. my mum really pampered my brother so much. i just don't know what to do anymore. and i don't feel like going home tomorrow. i'm at my cousin crib right now. will be going home tomorrow. i dread going home tomorrow and face my parents. my mum will surely scold me about the ezlink card accident. and she said i have a attitude problem. double hais..... i envy all my cousin parents. each time they want to go out, their parents will give them money. give them freedom and let them work. okay, i don't expect my parents to give me money each time i want to go out. but once in a while is fine. and i don't have much freedom like all my other cousin. most of the time if i go out, i have to be back by either 6PM or 7PM. my cousin who is only 13 years old, doesn't have a curfew! how i envy her. she have so much freedom. i'm already 16 years old and i still have a curfew. my life stinks. hmm.... even if i'm going to a friend's birthday party, i still have a freaking curfew. sucks? i know. right now, i'm depending on my blogshop to earn some money and use that money to spend on myself without asking from my parents and yet my mum said i'm a spoil brat. i'm mad at her to be honest. really mad. i just want to cry out loud. hais. i'm going to stop here. shall update when i'm free alright. mwah:-* xoxo.

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