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Tuesday, December 27, 2011 | 11:58 AM | 0 beautiful(s)
time checked, it's already 3.59am and i'm still wide awake:/ had a fight with him again. it's about the freaking facebook guys inbox thingy thing. old friend inbox me asking me whether i owned a twitter. and then i said no. that's it. there's a reason why i delete the inbox. i deleted it because i don't want him to said anything nasty to him and cause a fight. it's not because i don't want him to read. and then we got into a fight. and he start doing the same thing. he inboxed his old friend . he was the one who started inboxing the girl first. atleast i told him what my old friend want. but he? he didn't even tell me. and the i manage to caught one message from the girl. it was this--->':)' what was they talking about. all sorts of things is playing through my mind right now. yes, i know i played fb after 12 while texting him. he did talked to me. and i've stopped doing it. but when he found out that my old friend inbox me, he immediately log into fb and just picked any old girl friends of his and start inboxing. and the thing that hurt me is that, the girl is way more prettier, attractive then me. what did he said until the girl showed a smile face? and further more, the girl had mixed blood. and one of them was eurasion or whatever. she's really pretty then me. and i'm jelous because he inbox her. it hurts like hell. i have ebough problem and he just added one more burden onto me. i can't believe i'm crying badly while typing this. real bad. sure gonna get a really bad migraine after crying so badly. i'm stressed enough. i'm in pain. and i can't take anymore of this. seriously. i feel like running away from everyone and everything. i know that running away from my problems won't solve anything. but i don't care. if i don't run away, what should i do? just sit down there and do nothing? i'll be more fucked up then i am if i do that. i can't solve anything. maybe my mum is right. i'm too young to have a boyfriend at this kind of age. she kind of found out about me and him being together and she got very, very,very very upset. i feel like i've disappointed both of my parents. i've done things that my parents forbids me from doing. oh god:(... i just want to be a faithful daughter to both my mum and dad. sometimes i just wish that my parents didn't divorce at first. we was a really happy family. just like other families. it's hard for me to handle all this alone. it sucks, big time:'( nobody will even care if i just disappear like that. right now, i feel helpless, hopeless and useless. a piece of shit. going through all this alone is really hard and it sucks. teenage years is really tough i must say. god, i'm crying really badly now. shall stop here and cry myself to sleep. goodnight:'(
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time checked, it's already 3.59am and i'm still wide awake:/ had a fight with him again. it's about the freaking facebook guys inbox thingy thing. old friend inbox me asking me whether i owned a twitter. and then i said no. that's it. there's a reason why i delete the inbox. i deleted it because i don't want him to said anything nasty to him and cause a fight. it's not because i don't want him to read. and then we got into a fight. and he start doing the same thing. he inboxed his old friend . he was the one who started inboxing the girl first. atleast i told him what my old friend want. but he? he didn't even tell me. and the i manage to caught one message from the girl. it was this--->':)' what was they talking about. all sorts of things is playing through my mind right now. yes, i know i played fb after 12 while texting him. he did talked to me. and i've stopped doing it. but when he found out that my old friend inbox me, he immediately log into fb and just picked any old girl friends of his and start inboxing. and the thing that hurt me is that, the girl is way more prettier, attractive then me. what did he said until the girl showed a smile face? and further more, the girl had mixed blood. and one of them was eurasion or whatever. she's really pretty then me. and i'm jelous because he inbox her. it hurts like hell. i have ebough problem and he just added one more burden onto me. i can't believe i'm crying badly while typing this. real bad. sure gonna get a really bad migraine after crying so badly. i'm stressed enough. i'm in pain. and i can't take anymore of this. seriously. i feel like running away from everyone and everything. i know that running away from my problems won't solve anything. but i don't care. if i don't run away, what should i do? just sit down there and do nothing? i'll be more fucked up then i am if i do that. i can't solve anything. maybe my mum is right. i'm too young to have a boyfriend at this kind of age. she kind of found out about me and him being together and she got very, very,very very upset. i feel like i've disappointed both of my parents. i've done things that my parents forbids me from doing. oh god:(... i just want to be a faithful daughter to both my mum and dad. sometimes i just wish that my parents didn't divorce at first. we was a really happy family. just like other families. it's hard for me to handle all this alone. it sucks, big time:'( nobody will even care if i just disappear like that. right now, i feel helpless, hopeless and useless. a piece of shit. going through all this alone is really hard and it sucks. teenage years is really tough i must say. god, i'm crying really badly now. shall stop here and cry myself to sleep. goodnight:'(xoxo,
shira lollie.
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