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Monday, November 21, 2011 | 6:21 AM | 0 beautiful(s)
met him today. we're fine now. i get to meet him atlast. it's going to be one week since i last saw him. miss him so much. but smth happened. he was mad at me because i was busy with my phone. i was to blame. but nina said she got a job for me and that i have to comfirmed with her before 5.30pm. so was planning to work w/o dad knowing. because he surely won't let me work if i told him. i just hope he won't know. because it's like from 10.30-2.30pm. and 1 hour is $5.50. and it's only until friday. so yea. i hope dad won't get mad. even if he's mad, he's to blame. he's getting ridiculous this past few days:/ my curfew is always like get back home before 7. but idk what's wrong with my dad this past few days. i told him on sunday that i'm going my friend crib on mon. i'll be back home before 7. as per normal. and he said okay. but then he called me and like ask me in a panick mode. he said where am i. then i was like, 'i alr told you on sunday infront of nayli that i'm going my friend house and will be back home before 7.' and he asked me to be back home before 6. nonsense siaa. how miserable my life is. my brother have so much freedoom. me? i'm sec 3 alr. why is he still controlling me? i envy my cousin. she's only primary 6 and she can go back home anytime she want. and her parents is also strict, but doesn't control. me? i'm 15 turning 16 soon! this is so unfair! yes, i know he cares for me. he don't want anything to happen to me. but getting home before 6?! that is seriously, fucking ridiculous. i guess he's too paranoid when atok talked to him about me running away from home with nayli. i was like joking. where will i go? what will i eat? idk what's wrong with my dad. so if he finds out i'm working, i will just fucking admit. afterall, i did this because i need money. so that i don't have to ask him for money each time i want to buy smth. he should be happy. i know. he's scared that i will not be interested in studies anymore after i'm so engrossed in working to find money. i won't be like that. yes, i know i can't say like this earlier. but i know myself. i won't be like that. everything i said, he just won't listen. he only wants me to listen to him. so dad, i'm sorry if you find out i'm working w/o your permission. because you made me like this. i'm seriously suffering. my problems came at one go. whatever.
met him today. we're fine now. i get to meet him atlast. it's going to be one week since i last saw him. miss him so much. but smth happened. he was mad at me because i was busy with my phone. i was to blame. but nina said she got a job for me and that i have to comfirmed with her before 5.30pm. so was planning to work w/o dad knowing. because he surely won't let me work if i told him. i just hope he won't know. because it's like from 10.30-2.30pm. and 1 hour is $5.50. and it's only until friday. so yea. i hope dad won't get mad. even if he's mad, he's to blame. he's getting ridiculous this past few days:/ my curfew is always like get back home before 7. but idk what's wrong with my dad this past few days. i told him on sunday that i'm going my friend crib on mon. i'll be back home before 7. as per normal. and he said okay. but then he called me and like ask me in a panick mode. he said where am i. then i was like, 'i alr told you on sunday infront of nayli that i'm going my friend house and will be back home before 7.' and he asked me to be back home before 6. nonsense siaa. how miserable my life is. my brother have so much freedoom. me? i'm sec 3 alr. why is he still controlling me? i envy my cousin. she's only primary 6 and she can go back home anytime she want. and her parents is also strict, but doesn't control. me? i'm 15 turning 16 soon! this is so unfair! yes, i know he cares for me. he don't want anything to happen to me. but getting home before 6?! that is seriously, fucking ridiculous. i guess he's too paranoid when atok talked to him about me running away from home with nayli. i was like joking. where will i go? what will i eat? idk what's wrong with my dad. so if he finds out i'm working, i will just fucking admit. afterall, i did this because i need money. so that i don't have to ask him for money each time i want to buy smth. he should be happy. i know. he's scared that i will not be interested in studies anymore after i'm so engrossed in working to find money. i won't be like that. yes, i know i can't say like this earlier. but i know myself. i won't be like that. everything i said, he just won't listen. he only wants me to listen to him. so dad, i'm sorry if you find out i'm working w/o your permission. because you made me like this. i'm seriously suffering. my problems came at one go. whatever.what's wrong with you? why are you getting mad at me for no reason? when i asked you, you change the topic. you are being unreasonable you know:'( atleast you can tell me why you're mad at me. so i know. i've cried just now. and i'm crying as i'm typing it now. why are we fighting alot this past few days? why? oh gosh. i'm too weak to fight with you again. i can't blame you if you're mad at me. because i think, well, maybe it's my fault that i made you mad. but tell me why, what's the reason. so i know. you won't tell me, how am i suppose to know? how am i going to pacify and comfort you? haish...
to be honest, i'm really not good at pacifying you. well, in phone when you're mad, i still can't pacify you abit. but when we meet, i seriously don't know how to console you if you're mad at me:( why am i useless..... i never really had a 'serious' r/s. you are the first one. so that's why whenever we fight, i will act inmature and just ignore you when you text me. i'm so stupid. i really don't know what to say when you're mad, idk how to pacify you so you won't be mad anymore. haish, we are fighting everyday. even when we're on good terms, we'll fight again due to smth. then get back together, then fight again. that's the cycle. that's how it goes. i wonder if your friends have any bad impression on me. well, i'm not surprise if they leave a bad impression on me because of my attitude in this r/s. i'm immature. i admit.
i'm having a migraine. been crying too much. goodnight.
xoxo,
shira lollie.
Labels: immatured bitch.
Sunday, November 20, 2011 | 3:28 AM | 0 beautiful(s)
hello. today i woke up at 4+. late huh? well, i can't sleep due to smth yesterday--' me and nayli was planning to run away from home yesterday because we thought our parents knew we had a boyfriend. i knew it was a stupid idea. but nayli insisted it. but where wil we go if we run home? so we woke atok up and asked him to help us. hahaha! and atok said he will help us talk to our parents. then me and nayli was like 'don't! nono!' cause we're not sure if our parents really know or not-_-' so yea, we ask atok to promise us to help us in case our parents want to beat us up. and he promised. and we can finally go to sleep. the next day nayli woke me up. she said she's scared. i was sleepy when she talked to me. so i just said 'your mum won't know la. just go back to sleep.' hahaha!!! i was really sleepy laaaaa. so woke up and ask nayli if her mum talk to her about anything. and she said no. phew. and atok talked to her mum alr. atok told her mum that we wanted to run away from home-.-' atok said we was bored and was just joking around. hahha. lucky.
hello. today i woke up at 4+. late huh? well, i can't sleep due to smth yesterday--' me and nayli was planning to run away from home yesterday because we thought our parents knew we had a boyfriend. i knew it was a stupid idea. but nayli insisted it. but where wil we go if we run home? so we woke atok up and asked him to help us. hahaha! and atok said he will help us talk to our parents. then me and nayli was like 'don't! nono!' cause we're not sure if our parents really know or not-_-' so yea, we ask atok to promise us to help us in case our parents want to beat us up. and he promised. and we can finally go to sleep. the next day nayli woke me up. she said she's scared. i was sleepy when she talked to me. so i just said 'your mum won't know la. just go back to sleep.' hahaha!!! i was really sleepy laaaaa. so woke up and ask nayli if her mum talk to her about anything. and she said no. phew. and atok talked to her mum alr. atok told her mum that we wanted to run away from home-.-' atok said we was bored and was just joking around. hahha. lucky. i fought with him, again. he was the one who picked up a fight with me siaa? just because i compared his hair with jb hair. and he thought the reason why i don't let him cut his hair is because, later not like jb anymore. WTH?! That's not the reason siaa-.- and he said i doesn't love him for who he is? sedih siaa kene tuduh lagi. urgh, whatever ah. biar ah die pikir yg lain. he doesn't know why i don't let him cut his hair. it's not because of that jb okay-.- let him cut his hair. idc. he want to cut botak also can-.- bye.
xoxo,
shira lollie.
Labels: moves like jagger.
Saturday, November 19, 2011 | 12:42 AM | 0 beautiful(s)
supsxzs! today i woke up early yaw! 2.30:> dad was the one who forced me to wake up-.- i was still sleepy though. but yea, wake up, shower blablabla. didn't otp yesterday:/ haish. three days straight we've been fighting. what happened? idk. don't ask me. idk what's wrong with me. getting mad over little things. urgh.
supsxzs! today i woke up early yaw! 2.30:> dad was the one who forced me to wake up-.- i was still sleepy though. but yea, wake up, shower blablabla. didn't otp yesterday:/ haish. three days straight we've been fighting. what happened? idk. don't ask me. idk what's wrong with me. getting mad over little things. urgh.today nenek cooked nasi ayam. yumyum! bau die je, perut aku dah berbunyi and i'm drooling. i'm sho hungry. nnk cpt habes masak please. i dah setengah mampos kerana kelaparan ya' know. my brother admitted that he cried at graduation night yesterday! hahha! my mum asked him why he cried, he said 'tak salah pe nak emotional jap.' hahha! XD K.
i shall stop here. byeeeeeeeeeee!
xoxo,
shira lollie.
Labels: i'm broken., I'm done pretending i'm happy. I'm done laughing when all i want to do is cry. I'm done pretending. I'm not hurting
Friday, November 18, 2011 | 12:09 AM | 0 beautiful(s)
we've been together for 1 year. well, i'm happy to be with him. he makes me feel happy. among all my ex's, i must say, he's the best. the best of the bestest. mehehehehe:3 although we fought alot, we still solve it by talking things out. oh well, orang tue kate, gaduh-gaduh sayang. hehhe:p eventhough he's 18, he doesn't care that his girlf age is 15. age doesn't matter in love anyway:) thank god i've found him. he's both my guy bestfriend and boyf. we can get along pretty well. he'll try to solve my problems. he'll be with me through thick and thin. no matter how worse the situation get, he won't leave me alone. i was shy with all my ex's, but since i met him, idk. i'm not that quite shy with him. i can still talk with him abit. and joke around with him. he has showed me that not all guys are jerks. some are not. and he's among them. if he promise me smth, he will stick to his promise. w/o his support, encouragement, i wouldn't have passed my exams and improve my math and position in class. i'm glad he has been patient with my attitudes when we fight. yes, he once called me names when we fight. he once been harsh to me when we fight. but i couldn't blame him. it's because of me, my fault. if i didn't made him mad, he wouldn't do that. but people said, forgive and forget. i can't stay mad with him for too long. hahha. tak sah kalau satu hari text die:p rindu oiiiiiii! hahha! he's very good at entertaining people. haa, i like him. i love him. very much. didn't know that i can last this long with him. he understands me when i say i can't go out. and when i'm pissed off at other people, i tend to throw tantrums at him. wth right? but, he understands, instead of showing me attitude when i throwed tantrums at him, he'll try his best to cool me down. i like:> oh! he cares for me too. he will always asked me to sleep early because he knows that if i sleep late, i'll get a major headache when i wake up the next day. how caring can he be? cair la please:p he makes me happy, everyday. he knows what type of girl i am. he won't force me to do smth that i don't like. girls out there who tries to flirt with him, don't try to. you'll regret it. even if you try to flirt with him, he won't be bother with you. he rather flirt with me:p HARHAHAR. IN YOUR FACE BITCHESSSSS:P!
we've been together for 1 year. well, i'm happy to be with him. he makes me feel happy. among all my ex's, i must say, he's the best. the best of the bestest. mehehehehe:3 although we fought alot, we still solve it by talking things out. oh well, orang tue kate, gaduh-gaduh sayang. hehhe:p eventhough he's 18, he doesn't care that his girlf age is 15. age doesn't matter in love anyway:) thank god i've found him. he's both my guy bestfriend and boyf. we can get along pretty well. he'll try to solve my problems. he'll be with me through thick and thin. no matter how worse the situation get, he won't leave me alone. i was shy with all my ex's, but since i met him, idk. i'm not that quite shy with him. i can still talk with him abit. and joke around with him. he has showed me that not all guys are jerks. some are not. and he's among them. if he promise me smth, he will stick to his promise. w/o his support, encouragement, i wouldn't have passed my exams and improve my math and position in class. i'm glad he has been patient with my attitudes when we fight. yes, he once called me names when we fight. he once been harsh to me when we fight. but i couldn't blame him. it's because of me, my fault. if i didn't made him mad, he wouldn't do that. but people said, forgive and forget. i can't stay mad with him for too long. hahha. tak sah kalau satu hari text die:p rindu oiiiiiii! hahha! he's very good at entertaining people. haa, i like him. i love him. very much. didn't know that i can last this long with him. he understands me when i say i can't go out. and when i'm pissed off at other people, i tend to throw tantrums at him. wth right? but, he understands, instead of showing me attitude when i throwed tantrums at him, he'll try his best to cool me down. i like:> oh! he cares for me too. he will always asked me to sleep early because he knows that if i sleep late, i'll get a major headache when i wake up the next day. how caring can he be? cair la please:p he makes me happy, everyday. he knows what type of girl i am. he won't force me to do smth that i don't like. girls out there who tries to flirt with him, don't try to. you'll regret it. even if you try to flirt with him, he won't be bother with you. he rather flirt with me:p HARHAHAR. IN YOUR FACE BITCHESSSSS:P!okay, he didn't text me today. i'm like waiting for his text:( i think he dozed off while waiting for my reply yesterday. i'm waiting for him to text me and say 'sorry. i dozed off yesterday.' still waiting. but i guess he won't text me. he's having fun with his friends:< i miss him, badly. really badly. urgh, whatever. shall stop right here. bye!
xoxo,
shira lollie.
Labels: 081110 always.
Thursday, November 17, 2011 | 11:51 PM | 0 beautiful(s)
2011 is ending soon. and we're going different class next year. but of course, we'll still remain as 5vs. bestfriends. yes, we fight alot. but we manage to solve it. we stand strong together. we are strong girls you know. i'll pray for each and one of them. this is what we call true friends. they're there for you when you're down. they pull you back together when you can't do it alone. they comfort you. they protect you like you're their sister. sworn sisters. they scold whoever that bullies you. they stand up for you. they'll kill the jerks who hurt you. they won't leave you in the lurch. they will be with you together through thick and thin. they love you like thier own family. they look up to you as a big sister. they respect you. they will cry together with you when you're sad. eat junk foods with you when you're down. you won't be alone. they will be there with you. and all this refers to 5vs. i'm blessed to have them as my good friends. we've been bestfriends for 2 years now. and it's still counting. let's hope this will continue forever. amin.
2011 is ending soon. and we're going different class next year. but of course, we'll still remain as 5vs. bestfriends. yes, we fight alot. but we manage to solve it. we stand strong together. we are strong girls you know. i'll pray for each and one of them. this is what we call true friends. they're there for you when you're down. they pull you back together when you can't do it alone. they comfort you. they protect you like you're their sister. sworn sisters. they scold whoever that bullies you. they stand up for you. they'll kill the jerks who hurt you. they won't leave you in the lurch. they will be with you together through thick and thin. they love you like thier own family. they look up to you as a big sister. they respect you. they will cry together with you when you're sad. eat junk foods with you when you're down. you won't be alone. they will be there with you. and all this refers to 5vs. i'm blessed to have them as my good friends. we've been bestfriends for 2 years now. and it's still counting. let's hope this will continue forever. amin.xoxo,
shira lollie.
Labels: 5vs.
| 6:13 AM | 0 beautiful(s)
i like this picture so much. hehehe. idk why. k lol. i'm going to be fat soon-.- today i ate 3 times. usually i ate 2 times only. but today, idk what's wrong with me? first, at around 5+, i ate rice with sambal udang. then at 7+, i ate rice with asam pedas. 30mins later, i ate tom yum maggie. and then i ate kueh kochi and lopes. wah, i ate alot>.< i'm so hungry la okay. really. it's always like that, when holidays came, i have nth to do at home, i much at food to kill my boredom. pfft. since i can't work, can't always go out, much food ah. nyehahahahahaha:3
i like this picture so much. hehehe. idk why. k lol. i'm going to be fat soon-.- today i ate 3 times. usually i ate 2 times only. but today, idk what's wrong with me? first, at around 5+, i ate rice with sambal udang. then at 7+, i ate rice with asam pedas. 30mins later, i ate tom yum maggie. and then i ate kueh kochi and lopes. wah, i ate alot>.< i'm so hungry la okay. really. it's always like that, when holidays came, i have nth to do at home, i much at food to kill my boredom. pfft. since i can't work, can't always go out, much food ah. nyehahahahahaha:3 so, uncle fight with auntie again. and auntie nose kinda of broke. ouch. that must really hurt. idk they fought because of what. my uncle is so damn violent. really. i'm scared of him. urgh. hope auntie nose won't be distorted:/
was suppose to go to mum place this fri until sun. but then if i go, i have to accompany granmum to some wedding. and it's at serangoon. and i'm realy lazy. so mum told me not to go bukit merah this fri. go next week cause it's her payday. so we're probably going to catch a movie or eat seoul garden. so yea... i should end here now. byeeeee!
xoxo,
shira lollie.
Labels: Far away.
Wednesday, November 16, 2011 | 6:52 AM | 0 beautiful(s)
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lfhncsdiorgh xkdfnhszgifkxfnhgkdksdg! this is how i'm feeling right now. FUCK YOU ALL. NBCB. LEAVE ME ALONE. FUCKFUCKFUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Labels: BABI
| 12:35 AM | 0 beautiful(s)
In another life, i would be your girl<3
In another life, i would be your girl<3Helloooooo! Woke up at 3.30pm. that was quite late huh? hahha. tireddddddd. slept at 4+ yesterday. that's why. haven't eaten anything yet. no appetite. fought with bumblebee, again. haish. when is this ever gonna stop dude? i'm sick and tired. tried texting him just now, but it seems like he doesn't have any mood. pfft. what should i do now? can someone tell me? it's never gonna stop. bleagh~ whatever. cried yesterday. got a major headache after crying so much:( idk why. it's not just because of the misunderstanding we had yesterday. it's like, you know, all the sad feeling i had, i just bottled them up. and when i couldn't take it anymore, i let it all out. i will cry for hours and hours. i will call myself stupid and so. girls are destined to be ill-fated huh. mostly it's the girls that suffered alot. try asking other girls. they will agree with me. sometimes, i told myself that i'm still a little girl. i'm not fit to be in a relationship yet. it's like, i feel that i've still got alot to learn. i always told myself that bumblebee deserve someone better then me, even when we're not fighting. it's like, well.. he's 18yrs old. and i'm only like, what? 15yrs old. people said that age doesn't matter in love. yes, i agree. but the way we think, isn't the same. he's going to be a adult. while i'm still a teenager. our thinking is way too different. it's not the same. but whatever it is, i won't let him go. idc what people want to say. idgaf. i love him. bitches out there try to steal him, can. OVER MY DEAD BODY BITCHES_l_! *flips hair to one side* huh.
secondary school students already have thier holidays. primary students will start thier holidays this fri. so that mean thurs is their last day of school. for the p6 students, i hope you guys pass your psle with flying colours and get to go to your desire secondary schools okay! all my cousins is working... except for me:< haish. dad, will you please let me go to work rather then seeing me rot at home and do nth? dying of boredom! not much plans this holiday... Syiirah is going to k.l this sat. and will be back on 4 december. so, i won't have any going out partners. i is sadsxzs. tskk.
i miss my iphone soooo much. regret bringing it to the toilet!!!!!!! if i didn't bring it to the fucking toilet, it wouldn't have fall into the smelly toilet bowl-.- currently using nenek's phone. nokia E63. luckily got whatsapp. nyehehehehe. mum said she's going to reward me for my hard work in december. she said it's a secret. so, at first i though that she was going to buy me another iphone. i told her if she's going to buy me another iphone, idw. it's too expensive. then she said 'jgn perasan.' hahahahaha. so i forced her to tell me and she eventually told me:p she said she's going to give me money for shopping. and i'm like OMG! *faint then wake up back* and she said she's going to give me between $100-$300. she said it's ALOT. okay, i can't wait for december!!!!!!!! SHOPPING BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and i force dad to buy me a new phone. i hate using this nokia E63. the battery died so fast-.- force dad to buy me a iphone 4. and he said wait for december. okay, yay! i is sho damn excited!!! hehehehehe:3
teacher gave us hmwk as a holiday hmwk. dafug?!?!?!?! IT'S A FUCKING HOLIDAYS DUDE! do you know what holidays mean? it means that students is finally enjoying after studying and doing hmwk so much! so it means that you teachers doesn't have any brains and gave us hmwk! ergh!!!!!!! i'm going to do that hmwk last min. idgaf if i don't complete it.
okay, now i'm hungry after typing so much. hahha! i'm going to eat and wait for the chinese show to start at 5.30pm. happy holidays students out there! chaoooooooo!
xoxo,
shira lollie.
Labels: Taylor gang.
Tuesday, November 15, 2011 | 8:37 AM | 0 beautiful(s)
hello. time checked, 12.37am. currently texting with bumblebee and youtubing. had some misunderstanding with him earlier. old friend of mine inbox me and i was stupid and asked bumblebee if i can reply to his inbox or not. that's when i fucking spoilt his mood. pfft. how stupid can i get? seriously? but we're fine now. you see, if you were to be in a relationships, there's the advantages and the disadvantages. the advantages is, well, there's atleast someone to love you, pamper you and so on and forth. but the disadvantages is, they will get jealous easily when you contact with other guys. obviously. i mean, girls will get jealous too right? so yea, he don't like it when i contact with my old friends back. the guys i mean. sometimes... i feel that he's controlling me, but in a good way. i know he love me very much and is very afraid to lose me. he's scared that other guys out there will try to steal me away from him. hahha. how cute can he get. sayang die very much la:3! time flies so fast. we've been together for 1 year now. he's my longest stead so far. i never loved a guy this much. after 1 year being with him, never once my feelings start to fade. in fact, my love for him grew. day by day, i just love him so much. thank god i found him. mum knows about me and him. it's good to know that mum doesn't object to our relationship. luckily mum is understanding. but dad? he forbids me to be in a relationship. and he don't allowed me to go out with boys, not even my boys classmates. text with boys. how strict can my dad be? well, i understand why he's like this. i'm his only daughter. he's scared that i will become hanyut and rosak like other teenage girls out there. if i were him, i would act like that too. but he's too strict:/ i don't use to have a curfew last time. but since i keep coming back home late, he gave me a curfew. i have to be back home by 7pm. no later then that. that exclude if i have a class outing or attending to a friends birthday party. but that doesn't mean i still can go back home late! i will be back home before 9. since mum and dad is divorced, mum is living with her mum at bukit merah while dad is living at jurong east. whenever i want to go out on weekends, i will go to mum house. i have curfews there too. but mum curfew is much much much better then dad-.- i can go back before 10pm. sooo, whenever i'm going out with bumblebee or my friends, i will go oto mum place. nyehehehehe. but if on weekdays i want to go out, i can't go to mum place. so i have no choice but to go back by 7pm. pfft. sometimes i feel that mum is way more understandable then dad. haa. mum and dad was such a perfect couple. why they have to divorced:/? sometimes i cried thinking about this. i mean, it didn't crossed my mind once last time that my parents are going to divorced one day. i mean, we are a happy family. so happy. but because of a third party that came to my dad's life, boom! all of it crashes down. sometimes, i just fucking hate my dad. how can he have the heart to leave my mum for another woman? is it not enough the way my mum loved him? what more he want? urgh! i thought my life would ended when they divorced. but i tell myself, i musn't let all this afffect me, my studies, my daily life. it was hard for me to cope at first. but days by days, i manage to pull myself together and carry life as per normal. i'm 15 now, going 16. i finally understand fully why they're divorced. i just hope this doesn't happen to me when i'm married in a few years time:/ okay, drop this topic. i'm going to keep talking about this forever if i don't stop now. hahha. things between me and bumblebee is fine. except that we quarell a little bit almost everyday. it's normal. which couple doesn't quarell over little things. this shows that they love each other very much and treasure their relationship. obviously i treasured mine. duh! hehhe. okay, i seriously have to stop here. i've been typing from 12.30. hahha! i'm going to eat sardines cecah with roti while texting with my bumblebee. goodnight!
hello. time checked, 12.37am. currently texting with bumblebee and youtubing. had some misunderstanding with him earlier. old friend of mine inbox me and i was stupid and asked bumblebee if i can reply to his inbox or not. that's when i fucking spoilt his mood. pfft. how stupid can i get? seriously? but we're fine now. you see, if you were to be in a relationships, there's the advantages and the disadvantages. the advantages is, well, there's atleast someone to love you, pamper you and so on and forth. but the disadvantages is, they will get jealous easily when you contact with other guys. obviously. i mean, girls will get jealous too right? so yea, he don't like it when i contact with my old friends back. the guys i mean. sometimes... i feel that he's controlling me, but in a good way. i know he love me very much and is very afraid to lose me. he's scared that other guys out there will try to steal me away from him. hahha. how cute can he get. sayang die very much la:3! time flies so fast. we've been together for 1 year now. he's my longest stead so far. i never loved a guy this much. after 1 year being with him, never once my feelings start to fade. in fact, my love for him grew. day by day, i just love him so much. thank god i found him. mum knows about me and him. it's good to know that mum doesn't object to our relationship. luckily mum is understanding. but dad? he forbids me to be in a relationship. and he don't allowed me to go out with boys, not even my boys classmates. text with boys. how strict can my dad be? well, i understand why he's like this. i'm his only daughter. he's scared that i will become hanyut and rosak like other teenage girls out there. if i were him, i would act like that too. but he's too strict:/ i don't use to have a curfew last time. but since i keep coming back home late, he gave me a curfew. i have to be back home by 7pm. no later then that. that exclude if i have a class outing or attending to a friends birthday party. but that doesn't mean i still can go back home late! i will be back home before 9. since mum and dad is divorced, mum is living with her mum at bukit merah while dad is living at jurong east. whenever i want to go out on weekends, i will go to mum house. i have curfews there too. but mum curfew is much much much better then dad-.- i can go back before 10pm. sooo, whenever i'm going out with bumblebee or my friends, i will go oto mum place. nyehehehehe. but if on weekdays i want to go out, i can't go to mum place. so i have no choice but to go back by 7pm. pfft. sometimes i feel that mum is way more understandable then dad. haa. mum and dad was such a perfect couple. why they have to divorced:/? sometimes i cried thinking about this. i mean, it didn't crossed my mind once last time that my parents are going to divorced one day. i mean, we are a happy family. so happy. but because of a third party that came to my dad's life, boom! all of it crashes down. sometimes, i just fucking hate my dad. how can he have the heart to leave my mum for another woman? is it not enough the way my mum loved him? what more he want? urgh! i thought my life would ended when they divorced. but i tell myself, i musn't let all this afffect me, my studies, my daily life. it was hard for me to cope at first. but days by days, i manage to pull myself together and carry life as per normal. i'm 15 now, going 16. i finally understand fully why they're divorced. i just hope this doesn't happen to me when i'm married in a few years time:/ okay, drop this topic. i'm going to keep talking about this forever if i don't stop now. hahha. things between me and bumblebee is fine. except that we quarell a little bit almost everyday. it's normal. which couple doesn't quarell over little things. this shows that they love each other very much and treasure their relationship. obviously i treasured mine. duh! hehhe. okay, i seriously have to stop here. i've been typing from 12.30. hahha! i'm going to eat sardines cecah with roti while texting with my bumblebee. goodnight!xoxo,
shira lollie.
Labels: i'll find someone like you., nevermind
Monday, November 7, 2011 | 12:54 AM | 0 beautiful(s)
so, everybody gone out already. nayli go orchard with her family. danial gone to work. dad is going to west coast. nenek and atok going jp with auntie. fazah and iwan is slacking. and i'm here at home, alone. forevergirlalone_96@alone.com.sg. pfft. nvm, tmr and wed i'm going out. hehhe:p. okay i got nth to write alr. bye!
so, everybody gone out already. nayli go orchard with her family. danial gone to work. dad is going to west coast. nenek and atok going jp with auntie. fazah and iwan is slacking. and i'm here at home, alone. forevergirlalone_96@alone.com.sg. pfft. nvm, tmr and wed i'm going out. hehhe:p. okay i got nth to write alr. bye!
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Thursday, November 3, 2011 | 11:48 AM | 0 beautiful(s)
Hello. Time checked, 3.04am and i'm still awake. was supposed to be sleep by now. but i really can't sleep because i drank coffee earlier. had some misunderstandings between him:'( i made him cry. fuck you shira. argh! i'm feeling fucked up this past few days. i don't know why:/ adui... you are sooooo stupid shira. really. damn it laaaaa! and tomorrow i'm meeting him. i'm nervous cause i made him cry alreadyyyyyyy. pfft.
okay, all of my cousins is working. me? fucking rot at home-.- not fair! everybodys gets to work and i have to stay at home. hmpfft! blueeeekkk!!!!! holidays is 2 months. and what the hell am i supposed to do in the one month heh? tell me can? i don't know what to say already.
xoxo,
shira lollie
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Hello. Time checked, 3.04am and i'm still awake. was supposed to be sleep by now. but i really can't sleep because i drank coffee earlier. had some misunderstandings between him:'( i made him cry. fuck you shira. argh! i'm feeling fucked up this past few days. i don't know why:/ adui... you are sooooo stupid shira. really. damn it laaaaa! and tomorrow i'm meeting him. i'm nervous cause i made him cry alreadyyyyyyy. pfft.
okay, all of my cousins is working. me? fucking rot at home-.- not fair! everybodys gets to work and i have to stay at home. hmpfft! blueeeekkk!!!!! holidays is 2 months. and what the hell am i supposed to do in the one month heh? tell me can? i don't know what to say already.
xoxo,
shira lollie
Labels: i'm sorryyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.